I love you!

My smile had faded.

In its place was a frown that dared to touch deep within my heart.

It penetrated the walls there and made a home in each of its four chambers

Words can never be sufficient to express such emotions

The feeling of loss, pain and betrayal

Unbearable

The feeling of losing a piece of yourself each time

The feeling of nothing ever being the same

The feeling of having to start over yet again

Until you have an awakening

You realize that this was just a test

Of not who you are but the person you need to be

You begin to reconstruct

And slowly you begin to regain consciousness

And realize that life is so much better when you are smiling

When you are living and not just existing

When you love and allow yourself to be loved

When you can trust yourself and others

You awake to a new and better you

And you fall in love with YOURSELF

And whisper …….I love you.